WHAT MORE??????????!!!!!!!!!!

Why am I always the one to blame?

Does my work not speak for itself?
Does the effort I pour in day after day not count for anything?
What more do they want from me?
What else do I have to do to prove my commitment and how seriously I take this?

I am even giving up something I am deeply passionate about next year, just to keep my focus entirely on what I am doing now. And still it is not enough?

How much more can I possibly give?

Am I doing that badly? I genuinely do not think so. And more importantly, God knows. He sees every effort, every sacrifice, every thing I have quietly laid down that no one else will ever know about or take the time to understand.

Even if I cried until there was nothing left, who would truly know what I am carrying right now?
Who would really understand?

But I am not staying here in this.

I speak directly to this situation, the one that is trying to unravel my work, disrupt my life and damage my relationships with the people around me. Get out of my way.

In Jesus' name.

I am going to conquer this.