The matter A issue of my heart
There is this certain matter of life that I have been facing by myself (of course God was the only one I spoke to bout this) all this 6 six years. I have always wanted to share it and make it known to my mum. I thought it'll be good for her to know of. So let's just call this matter...matter A for now shall we? Great!!
I was travelling back home with her in the car yday night. Somehow I just took the opportunity to tell her how I feel and bla bla bla. To my surprise she is quite encouraging. And I thought, it's gd cos that will lead me to sharing more. So it's trully a good start.
Of course I know she aint stupid. I sense that she knew what I'm facing! But I dun usually share this matter w her. Cos she didnt really understand what I was going thru at 1st(if u know what I mean). So that's why I normally dont talk much in details bout it. But recently, she has been more open and I see that she has been more encouraging. Thus giving me more confidence to wanna share w her my deepest thoughts and how I feel.
hmm..Prolly she thought that it's ok for me to handle it on my own and she trust my stands as principals. As always I'm a gd girl and know my boundaries ...hehe..ok stop rolling ur eyes peeps!!
So I went on a lil bit more yday night, telling her bout my true feelings. It was quite encouraging..but only if.. anyhow it's good actually..
sigh..but yday night I sense that she wasnt really into my topic..Prolly she was focusing on driving or thinking of some other stuff... So I just quit there. I guess it's good enuff to know what I wanted to know and sharing to mum a lil there. But there's just so much more I want to share. My thoughts, things that I have been goin thru bout the matter for 6 years! Well maybe a more suitable time will come along. I hope. I dont wish that at the end of it all, she still doesnt know bout what I go thru. Or is there some stuff that we just havta go thru alone and learn to handle it alone? I shall let God determine that. =)
I was travelling back home with her in the car yday night. Somehow I just took the opportunity to tell her how I feel and bla bla bla. To my surprise she is quite encouraging. And I thought, it's gd cos that will lead me to sharing more. So it's trully a good start.
Of course I know she aint stupid. I sense that she knew what I'm facing! But I dun usually share this matter w her. Cos she didnt really understand what I was going thru at 1st(if u know what I mean). So that's why I normally dont talk much in details bout it. But recently, she has been more open and I see that she has been more encouraging. Thus giving me more confidence to wanna share w her my deepest thoughts and how I feel.
hmm..Prolly she thought that it's ok for me to handle it on my own and she trust my stands as principals. As always I'm a gd girl and know my boundaries ...hehe..ok stop rolling ur eyes peeps!!
So I went on a lil bit more yday night, telling her bout my true feelings. It was quite encouraging..but only if.. anyhow it's good actually..
sigh..but yday night I sense that she wasnt really into my topic..Prolly she was focusing on driving or thinking of some other stuff... So I just quit there. I guess it's good enuff to know what I wanted to know and sharing to mum a lil there. But there's just so much more I want to share. My thoughts, things that I have been goin thru bout the matter for 6 years! Well maybe a more suitable time will come along. I hope. I dont wish that at the end of it all, she still doesnt know bout what I go thru. Or is there some stuff that we just havta go thru alone and learn to handle it alone? I shall let God determine that. =)
posted by Rachs at
1:25 PM
2 Comments:
i wonder is matter A equalvalent to "guy A", you know, those article we reads on the newspaper like..." i have fallen for guy A and i was close to guy B.. yadda yadda...?
hahah, see you soon, buddy.
Ehem buddy..trying to push the button eh?!..hehe..Well I will not usually write bout a guy matter like that..Definitely NOT on blogs! Far too dangerous. =)
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