Headache!!!

This is absolutely no fun. It is horrible.

The headaches are back. And they have been coming so frequently lately. Not just mild, passing ones either; these are serious, relentless headaches that either stay with me the entire day or come and go as they please, making it nearly impossible to concentrate on anything at work.

And it is not just when I am sitting still. I cannot even be a passenger in a car anymore without paying for it. If I am not the one driving, I will arrive at my destination feeling dizzy, nauseous or worse. I have had to keep my head as still as possible: no looking left, no looking right, and as little movement as I can manage. Otherwise, Mr Headache shows up and parks himself there for the rest of the day.

What is happening to me???

I have had a history of migraines since I was young, but they have gotten so much better over the years. Now they seem to be ramping back up, and I genuinely do not understand why.

Of course my brain has helpfully decided to spiral into the worst possible explanations. Brain tumour. Some mysterious illness. I actually went to see my doctor once specifically to ask if I had a brain tumour. His response? "Rachel, you think it's so easy to get a brain tumour?" Which did give me a laugh and a moment of peace, to be fair.

But with how frequently this is happening now, those thoughts are quietly creeping back.

A friend recommended Nurofen, and it does help, though I know I cannot rely on it too heavily. I just want to know what is actually causing this and how to make it stop.

Camp is next week, and I am already dreading the bus ride up. I always get terribly dizzy on that journey, and I even vomited the last time. Please God, not again.

I think I really should go for a scan. Or at the very least, make an appointment to see my doctor again.