Still struggling....
I'm still struggling..there are somethings when kept in the heart for 7 years, really cant just let it go like this. It's definitely not an overnight thing. Just timeless. Its already been almost a month
and it's still affecting me. All the emotions. Especially when I come face to face to it again. Every word or it's name being mentioned. The feeling just comes back. Once again I feel the hurt, the
the stupidity, dissapointment, all again.
I wish I can just push the feelings aside and bury it deep down in my heart and this matter can be drowned. So deep in my heart that it can never surface ever again. I tried digging and throwing all those feelings away,
but it's just so difficult. It's like a poison. Like a nightmare haunting me whenever I get face to face with it. Sometimes I cant even see it face to face...I cant face them. Been quite emo lately. Having mood swings here and there. But I've been trying so hard to put on a mask to hide my feelings so ppl arnd me will not notice how I feel.
It's so difficult.
Maybe I need more time. It's ok..no human can prolly understand how I feel or what I'm going through. But it's ok. It' for me to settle it on my own.
and it's still affecting me. All the emotions. Especially when I come face to face to it again. Every word or it's name being mentioned. The feeling just comes back. Once again I feel the hurt, the
the stupidity, dissapointment, all again.
I wish I can just push the feelings aside and bury it deep down in my heart and this matter can be drowned. So deep in my heart that it can never surface ever again. I tried digging and throwing all those feelings away,
but it's just so difficult. It's like a poison. Like a nightmare haunting me whenever I get face to face with it. Sometimes I cant even see it face to face...I cant face them. Been quite emo lately. Having mood swings here and there. But I've been trying so hard to put on a mask to hide my feelings so ppl arnd me will not notice how I feel.
It's so difficult.
Maybe I need more time. It's ok..no human can prolly understand how I feel or what I'm going through. But it's ok. It' for me to settle it on my own.
posted by Rachs at
6:12 PM
1 Comments:
Dear, don't think so much. We are so much alike. I always think the same thing over and over again. But anyways, anything you can always call me alright? Hey if u guys can come on sat the 16th at Curve, let me know. Will be performing there for my gym thng ya. Also, sorry for not being able to meet you on Thurs. Was looking forward to it.
*Muaks, take cares~
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