Guarding my heart….
Indeed…this has been ringing in my mind, in my head. This is the advice I gave to someone dear who just left. So many scenarios have been taking place off late. It’s like going thru a paradigm shift. From career, on what I want to do, to my walk w God (God is just nudging and calling out for me. I want to seek him so much more) to things that has been happening this year in my life…to personal feelings. The emotions are just raving like a rough sea wave. I have no idea why things are just shifting. It’s like something has been dug up from my heart and now I’m feeling the pinch and the uncomfortable moments. The emotions are like a pendulum swinging from happy to sad many times till the point I felt so numb emotionally.
Off late. I have noticed feelings in me which I have never felt all this while. I don’t really know how to explain it in words. It’s like you have something in you that you don’t realize but when things starts changing in life and different things take place, then you realize that, “Hey! I didn’t know I feel that way all this while!” When I start searching deeper, the feelings are even stronger. Like it’s jumping out at me…saying “Hello! I’m here all this while..You just didn’t bother bout me and kept me deep down inside, you’ve totally taken for granted of me!” It’s that thing I wrote about a few days ago (my previous post). About loosing that certain something. And I don’t know how I’m crazy bout it till I loose it. I’m still in search of it. At times I come to a conclusion that it’s this particular issue that is the cause or the root of all this feelings and change that I’m facing. Honestly, I can’t determine whether it is or not. I’m still searching..still waiting for more notes to drop by. As it’s happening simultaneously, it could also be that nudging by God and He leading me to find out and dig out things in my heart that I should be throwing and at the same time digging out the submerged feelings that I didn’t know I have. God’s just showing me a whole lot…especially in my relationship with Him. I know I have to buck up.
Sometimes I feel like all that’s happening now could be a whole turn over of my life at this point, this season. You know how some will turn their mattress over to another side after sleeping on one side for 3 months? SO every 3 months you just flip the mattress to the other side to balance the shape of the mattress or something? Yea I feel as if that’s happening in my life now. Prolly God is flipping the mattress for me now. Thus I will be able to experience new things and walk on a whole new season and chapter of life. Like in a game, as you climb the levels, you get new added feature/weapon and a whole new scenario right?
I hope this is going to be a good turn over and I that I’ll get some really cool scenarios this season. I know it’s all the more I should be guarding my heart and not let it bounce all over. I will truly guard my heart just for _ _ _ _ _ _ _ …..
……It’s funny how feelings can turn out to be........you really wouldn’t know……
Off late. I have noticed feelings in me which I have never felt all this while. I don’t really know how to explain it in words. It’s like you have something in you that you don’t realize but when things starts changing in life and different things take place, then you realize that, “Hey! I didn’t know I feel that way all this while!” When I start searching deeper, the feelings are even stronger. Like it’s jumping out at me…saying “Hello! I’m here all this while..You just didn’t bother bout me and kept me deep down inside, you’ve totally taken for granted of me!” It’s that thing I wrote about a few days ago (my previous post). About loosing that certain something. And I don’t know how I’m crazy bout it till I loose it. I’m still in search of it. At times I come to a conclusion that it’s this particular issue that is the cause or the root of all this feelings and change that I’m facing. Honestly, I can’t determine whether it is or not. I’m still searching..still waiting for more notes to drop by. As it’s happening simultaneously, it could also be that nudging by God and He leading me to find out and dig out things in my heart that I should be throwing and at the same time digging out the submerged feelings that I didn’t know I have. God’s just showing me a whole lot…especially in my relationship with Him. I know I have to buck up.
Sometimes I feel like all that’s happening now could be a whole turn over of my life at this point, this season. You know how some will turn their mattress over to another side after sleeping on one side for 3 months? SO every 3 months you just flip the mattress to the other side to balance the shape of the mattress or something? Yea I feel as if that’s happening in my life now. Prolly God is flipping the mattress for me now. Thus I will be able to experience new things and walk on a whole new season and chapter of life. Like in a game, as you climb the levels, you get new added feature/weapon and a whole new scenario right?
I hope this is going to be a good turn over and I that I’ll get some really cool scenarios this season. I know it’s all the more I should be guarding my heart and not let it bounce all over. I will truly guard my heart just for _ _ _ _ _ _ _ …..
……It’s funny how feelings can turn out to be........you really wouldn’t know……
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