Sense of regret?Wrong decision? Maybe...

Have you ever felt a sense of regret, or even just a quiet thought in your mind, wondering if you may have made the wrong decision about someone?

I have.
In fact, this question has been sitting with me for quite some time now.

What once felt so certain, someone I had full confidence in, has now become something I find myself questioning. That confidence I once carried so strongly feels like it is slowly slipping. I do not want it to stay this way. I truly hope that one day I will be able to regain that confidence again.

Things seem to have shifted after I made that decision. It did not turn out quite the way I had imagined. To say I feel disappointed would not be entirely wrong. There is a part of me that does feel that.

I find myself wondering where this person stands now. Are they still unaware, or are they consciously choosing a different direction from what I had built? I do not know. And I do not want to assume. I still hope that their intentions are right. But from what I have been observing, there have been noticeable changes. Even the way we communicate feels different. At times, I find it hard to appreciate the way I am being spoken to.

Is it a lack of respect? I would like to believe otherwise. I know that I have done my best to lead by example, to the best of my ability.

I once heard someone say, “If you want others to carry your vision, you must first be willing to carry someone else’s.” That stayed with me. I have done that for someone I deeply respect. And I can only hope that this person will one day do the same.

There is still so much to learn. And in the midst of everything I am feeling, I want to remain a good teacher. I pray that I can pass on the values and lessons I have learned through my own journey. I pray that this person remains open, willing, and teachable.

More than anything, I ask for patience. For the ability to see beyond the present moment. To not rush into conclusions or form judgements too quickly. I am trying my best, but I will be honest; it is not always easy.

I truly hope this person will rise to the position they are in now and take it seriously. There are things I have seen recently that need correction.

And so I pray for wisdom. The wisdom to guide, to correct with grace, and to help this person grow and mature into who they are meant to be.