Praises to my beloved...

I LOVE YOU GOD!!!! I LOVE YOU GOD!!!! I LOVEEEEEEEE YOUUUUUUU!!!!!

I just had to say it. Couldn’t contain it. Had to let it out into the world. Or at least into my little corner here. You are truly, truly an amazing God. Thank You for Your word.

This morning at service, I was honestly half dead. What to do when you hang out with a bunch of wacky friends who suddenly decide to watch a midnight movie, then go buy VCDs at 1.30am, and end up at the mamak at 2am. I only slept at 4am. And had to wake up at 6am for service.

Aaron, thanks for the song. I literally had to play it like a lullaby just to get myself two hours of sleep.

Anyway, back to service.

I was sitting there, half alive, and yes, small confession, I fell asleep halfway through the play. Not just me, the person next to me too. But I won’t say who. Haha.

I had already watched the play on Friday, so okay lah. But the message that came after… I was trying so hard to stay focused. It was Michael Koh speaking. I love listening to him. And there I was, struggling to keep my eyes open.

But something still got through.

He spoke about new life. About how Jesus has already done everything for us on the cross. It is done. Which means in our problems, we don’t have to sit there wondering if God will come through. We stand in the truth that He already has. We just need to claim victory.

At the end, there was an altar call. One of the groups he mentioned was those who were believing for a new life, even in areas like career. The moment he said that, I knew I had to respond. I stood up.

I didn’t expect what came next.

He invited those who stood up to come forward for prayer. And I hesitated.

Funny how when you’re always the one praying for others, stepping forward to be prayed for yourself suddenly feels… vulnerable.

But inside me, there was this nudge. Clear as anything.

“What if God has a word for you? If you don’t go, you might miss it again. Rachel, go now.”

I was literally battling with myself. And just when I decided to go… the benediction started.

Aiyo. Missed it.

But thank God for Xiao. I told her what happened, and she brought me forward anyway. She got Michael to pray for me. Thank you, babe. Really.

And you know what… God spoke.

That nudge I felt earlier, that was the Holy Spirit. And I knew it.

The word was simple, but it hit me so deeply.

“Rachel, do not be afraid. Let go of the fear of making the wrong decision and the worry about making the right one. I have already taken care of everything.”

That just… blew me away.

Because during praise and worship, that was exactly what I was telling God. I was afraid of making the wrong decision, but at the same time, I was afraid of making the right one too. I felt unsure, even though He had been faithfully encouraging me through daily devotions.

And then He answered me. Just like that.

I feel so alive right now. So expectant. I shared it with my mum, and she said the moment I spoke, she felt peace.

I really cannot wait to see this new season unfold.

Maybe my life will have four seasons in one. Haha. Whatever it is, God, if You open the door and send me, I will go. Wherever You lead, I will follow. Because You know what’s best for me. You know the desires of my heart.

I love You so, so, so much.

Blessed Easter to you.

My prayer is that you discover the greatest gift there is. Ask yourself who you are following today. Is it someone who gives you hope, who helps you dream again, and makes the impossible possible?

Jesus said, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.”